I am certain that I must find things to do to fill the large gaps of dead space in my daily life. I have three choices as I see it.
One, go back to video games, in the hope that the guilt of living on disability while utterly wasting my time will not cause my work ethic to sabotage said playing time.
Two, continue to buy gadgets and try to convince myself that people do not look at those gadgets and loathe my so called easy ride.
Three, rediscover my passion for coding with the intention of one day earning a living from my endeavors.
Alternatively, the fourth option is to wash dishes or floors until my back gives out on me completely. At minimum wage, staying under my earnings limit, and living a life of meekness and serenity as a vessel of God.
I think I will do all four, and for once be proud of myself for never having ultimately given up and committed Sepuku.